Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Day 30: Zorin Unlimited

It's been tough these past few weeks.  Over this time I've had to overcome a  ton of mental  barriers in order to make it this far.  Now I'm 75% of the way done.  I can't even believe it.  It makes me think about how much more I could have done in my life if I would have just believed in myself more and put my mind towards accomplishing them.  


I had a long talk with my pastor this morning for a long time, much of which was about what I wrote in yesterday's blog post.  Sometimes I worry that my ability to reason and the way I think about things, which is completely different than most of my friends and family gets in the way of me having the ability of just accepting Christianity at face value.  I have to investigate.


Song of the Day: "My Body" by Young The Giant


Weight: 209lb (Down 30lbs)
Body Fat: 22.6 (Down 7%)
Waist: 39" (Down 2")
Chest: 41" (Down .5")
Biceps: 15" (Down .5")


Today I Consumed:

  • 1 Naked Protein Zone Mango
  • 3Tablespoons Coconut Oil
  • Juice of:
    • 1/2 Pineapple
    • 3 Zucchini
    • 7 Oz Spinach
    • 1/2 pound Green Beans
    • 2 Inches Ginger



Luke 14:27-30 AM
Whoever does not persevere and carry his own cross and come after (follow) Me cannot be My disciple. For which of you, wishing to build a farm building, does not first sit down and calculate the cost [to see] whether he has sufficient means to finish it? Otherwise, when he has laid the foundation and is unable to complete [the building], all who see it will begin to mock and jeer at him, Saying, This man began to build and was not able (worth enough) to finish

Monday, January 30, 2012

Day 29: The OT

First off. Heat beat the Bulls! Yeah it wasn't that great of a victory beating them by 4 points without Deng but I find comfort in the fact that the bulls NEVER had the lead in that game.  What an awesome way to spend a Sunday.

So I also completely broke the TV thing... I just got a 60" Plasma... what do you expect?



I also have made it through the Old Testament and I haves come to the conclusion that I do not believe in the Old Testament as a whole.  I find that it is very rasist, sexist and though it does have some good principles, I simply can't believe that God just simply chose a group of people based on who they were born to and then put them in a situation where these societies would constantly at war with each other over love. God is Love, love does not envy, therefore God cannot be jealous.  The concept of a jealous angry vengeful God is something that I can't wrap my head around.


I'm not saying that there aren't good parts of the Old Testament aren't good, and I do believe in intelligent design, but I don't believe that the earth was created in seven days or there was a flood covering the entire earth and that two of every animal survived on a boat for months.  Don't get me wrong I do not think it is beyond the power of God to be able to do such things, I just think that such parts of the Bible are men trying to explain that which they could not explain.  In short I do not believe that a majority of the Old Testament is divinely inspired.


Song of the Day: "It's OK" by Cee Lo Green


Yesterday I Consumed:
  • 1/2 a Large Acorn Squash Roasted and Pureed
  • 1 Pound Grape Tomatoes Roasted and Pureed
  • 6 Cloves Roasted Garlic Pureed
  • 2 Cups Coconut Milk
  • 1 Naked Reduced Calorie Tropical
  • 1 FRS Healthy Protien Blueberry Acai
  • Juice of:
    • 1/2 Pinapple
    • 2 Oranges
    • 1/2lb Strawberries
    • 3 Handfuls Spinach
    • 2 inches Ginger


Matthew 15:2-5, 9, 17-20 NKJV
Why do Your disciples transgress the tradition of the elders? For they do not wash their hands when they eat bread. He answered and said to them, Why do you also transgress the commandment of God because of your tradition?  For God commanded, saying, Honor your father and your mother; and, He who curses father or mother, let him be put to death.  But you say, Whoever says to his father or mother, Whatever profit you might have received from me is a gift to God  And in vain they worship Me, Teaching as doctrines the commandments of men.  Do you not yet understand that whatever enters the mouth goes into the stomach and is eliminated?  But those things which proceed out of the mouth come from the heart, and they defile a man.  For out of the heart proceed evil thoughts, murders, adulteries, fornications, thefts, false witness, blasphemies.  These are the things which defile a man, but to eat with unwashed hands does not defile a man.


I've kind of rationalized this passage as another instance of Jesus elimanting the traditions of man and placing more of an importance on a relationship with God than ritualistic behaviors, but at the same time He's telling people not to wash their hands before they eat... and that's nasty. I also find it interesting that He said: "Do you not yet understand that whatever enters the mouth goes into the stomach and is eliminated?  But those things which proceed out of the mouth come from the heart, and they defile a man." Does anyone think that implicitly provides an endorsement towards things like say drug use and pornography ... among many other things.

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Day 22-28: [Insert Title Here]

So it has been quite some time since I made a blog post so I decided to go ahead and make  a long one now.   This week started out on a huge low.  For some strange reason I started out this week massively depressed.  I couldn't tell you if it was a result of my new eating habits or the fact that I had worked so many days in a row by that time but it was just weird.  I usually get a lot more sleep when I work the night shift, but  for some reason or another I couldn't sleep.  One day because I had to make tons of random phone calls about getting my cell phone replaced that I lost, another day because I was woken up in the middle of my sleep time for them to deliver said phone.  Either way for quite some time I felt completely defeated.  It was like all of this (or anything I was doing for that matter)  didn't mean anything at all.


Fortunately those feelings were isolated to that day in particular and didn't continue on.  I did have the chance to go snowboarding and I am getting a lot better.  I think I'm going to get a helmet for next time because there is a lot of fear in my head right now for falling (although those instances are getting a little farther between each other).  It will also be the last time I go snowboarding directly after midnight shift.  I knew that I was too tired to be on that mountain when I almost fell asleep on the lift.  Pretty dangerous.  The odd thing was directly after that I  was so awake.  I drove home and was awake until 5 am the next morning.  That was like around 36 hours without sleep only to be awakened by my TV's delivery, and subsequently the mounts for my speakers.


While we're on the subject of home theater systems, I did indulge in some major spending (for the first time in forever this week too).  It was Wednesday night when I was getting ready to watch the State of the Union from the night before that I recorded.  When I turned on the TV,  all I got was this gray screen.  So I'm like maybe it's just the DirecTV box, so I changed the input to the Xbox to see if that would work and gray screen again.  Then I go to HH Gregg and spend $4400 on TVs, Surround Sound and Blu Ray players.  Impulse spending is still alive and well with me so I guess the economy isn't as bad as we thought.  The new stuff looks and sounds great though, but it also leaves me in kind of a conundrum for several reasons.  In order to watch Amazon Instant videos, I need the original TV remote, because I can't find the Viera Tools Option on my Harmony Remote.  Also the Harmony remote doesn't do a very good job with the inputs.  I also need the original remote for Google TV because of the keyboard.  DirecTV remote is still pretty useless, since almost every other remote I have controls DirecTV box pretty easy, but still I was at one remote and now I'm at 3 at a minimum.


There are only 13 Days remaining.


I decided to do a playlist since I was gone for so long, this is just a bunch of high energy songs that I listen to for workouts and was also what I was listening to while snowboarding.

Down With the Sickness Disturbed
Right In Two Tool
So Cold Breaking Benjamin
Spiders System Of A Down
The Package A Perfect Circle
Head Like A Hole Nine Inch Nails
No More Tears Ozzy Osbourne
Master Of Puppets Metallica
Wont Back Down Eminem
Ænema Tool
Man In the Box  Alice In Chains
Keep Your S*** the Hardest DMX
This Is The Hook Deadmau5
Weight of the World Evanescence
Neva Eva' Trillville
Killing In The Name Rage Against The Machine
Notorious Thugs The Notorious B.I.G.
No More Sorrow [Live] Linkin Park
Throw Some D's Rich Boy
Hitchin' a Ride Green Day
Candy Coated Shawnna Featuring Eightball & MJG
Inspector Gadget Chrispy
Hysteria Muse
Niggas in Paris Jay-Z and Kanye West
Cassie Flyleaf
Push that N****, Push that H** Lil' Jon & The East Side Boyz
Thriller Fall Out Boy
Wipe Me Down FOXX
Heart In A Cage The Strokes


Over this time period I consumed:
  • 2 Large Baked Sweet Potatoes Pureed
  • 3 Handfuls Cilantro Pureed
  • 3 Cups Almond Milk
  • 1 Cup Coconut Milk
  • 2 Handfuls Frozen Mixed Berries Pureed
  • 1 Handful Mixed Greens Pureed
  • 6 Portabella Mushrooms Pureed
  • Half of a Large Roasted Acorn Squash Pureed
  • 1 Celery Stalk Pureed
  • 1 Pasilla Pepper Pureed
  • 1 Onion Pureed
  • 1 Naked Mango Protein Zone
  • 1 Naked Peach Mango Oat Smoothie
  • 1 Naked Blueberry Oat Smoothie
  • 1 Naked Apple Cinnamon Oat Smoothie
  • 2 Naked Berry Veggie
  • 1 Naked Green Machine
  • 1 Naked Mighty Mango
  • Juice Of:
    • 5 Parsnips
    • 6 Carrots
    • 6 Stalks of Celery
    • 4 Bell Peppers
    • 1 Zuchinni
    • 2 Cucumbers
    • 6 oz Blueberries
    • 1 Grapefruit
    • 3 Oranges
    • 4 Tangerines
    • 3 Handfuls of Kumquats
    • 3 Handfuls Spinach
    • 3 Handfuls Mixed Greens
    • 3 Apples
    • 2 Handfuls of Grapes


Daniel 1:8, 12-13, 15-16 NLT
But Daniel was determined not to defile himself by eating the food and wine given to them by the king. He asked the chief of staff for permission not to eat these unacceptable foods. “Please test us for ten days on a diet of vegetables and water,” Daniel said. “At the end of the ten days, see how we look compared to the other young men who are eating the king’s food. Then make your decision in light of what you see.” At the end of the ten days, Daniel and his three friends looked healthier and better nourished than the young men who had been eating the food assigned by the king. So after that, the attendant fed them only vegetables instead of the food and wine provided for the others.


These verses came at a good time and were rather inspiring considering that I'm currently fasting.

Monday, January 23, 2012

Day 21ish: Fumbled

Its bad enough that I have to watch along as Troy Aikman and Joe Buck, also known as the worst commentart crew in the history of the football universe comment on the game.  Its bad enough that they couldn't stop talking about how great Eli Manning is to say anything about the game.  But to have your backup return guy give the ball up twice and singlehandedly give the game away on two different occasions.  Ive never been so mad in my life.  I mean damn, if you're gonna do that you should at least gift wrap the game for them.  Its the polite thing to do.
Anyway I would also like to take a moment to endorse the New York Giants as champions for Super Bowl 46. Mostly on the basis that I hate the Patriots so much, and that goes twice as much for that douchebag overrated quarterback Tom Brady. At least the Super Bowl isn't on Fox so I don't have to worry about having a repeat of today's awful commentary.  The bad part is now that the Niners will be respected as a legit team next year, I will probably be hearing a lot more of that awful duo next year.


Football Gods:  a great Wideout at 29 or 30 please.


Got to say Jim Harbaugh proved that a good coach is everything to a successful season.
In other news.  Newt Gingrich... really? Kinda crazy for him to win SC right after his ex wife explains that he requested an open marriage.  Even more surprising that the Republicans at the debate cheered his complete deflection of the question.  For me personally, I think a person's private life should be just that.  He quite frankly did in that moment what Bill Clinton Anthony Wiener and others should have done in that instance.  I personally just think that its very hypocritical for someone like himself drinking on the basis of family values to take that stance.  I mean who ruins the sanctity of marriage more, Newt and his three wife open ended in health but not necessarily sickness, or a devoted Lesbian couple.  Absurd the way our country thinks.


Song of The Day: "I'm Not Calling You A Liar" by Florence + The Machine
Awesome voice and lyrics.



Today I Consumed:
  • 1 Handful Mixed Berries
  • 1 Cup Almond Milk
  • 1 Handful Spinach
  • Juice of:
    • 1 Honeydew Melon
    • 4 Oranges
    • 1 Cucumber
    • 3 Zuchinni
    • 1 Lime
    • 1 5" Piece of Ginger
    • 1 Mango



Ezekiel 4:9, 12, 15 AMP
Also take wheat, barley, beans, lentils, millet, and spelt and put them into one vessel and make bread of them. According to the number of the days that you shall lie upon your side, 390 days you shall eat of it.  And you shall eat your food as barley cakes and you shall bake it with human dung as fuel in the sight of the people.  Then He said to me, Behold, I will let you use cow’s dung instead of human dung, and you shall prepare your food with it. 

I selected this verse because I always eat that Ezekiel 4:9 bread.  Look out for it in your grocer's freezer. Funny how they omit the rest of the recipe.  The funny thing is in the next chapter God tells of the coming destruction.  God basically just told the Israelites to eat shit and die.

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Day 20: Halfway Point

So I'm at the halfway point.  All I gotta say today is 40 Days is a long, long time.  Blog posts are off by a day since I'm working nights right now.


Weight 217lbs (Down 21lbs)
Body Fat: 21.2% (Down 8%)
Waist: 39.5" (Down 1.5")
Chest: 41.5" (No Change)
Biceps: 15" (No Change)


Song of the Day: "Living On A Prayer" by Bin Jovi
This song should be played when you're halfway through anything.
Today I consumed:

  • 1 Naked Mighty Mango
  • 1 Naked Green Machine
  • Juice of:
    • 1 Head of Broccoli
    • 2 Zuchinni
    • 1 Cucumber
    • 2 Oranges
    • 1 Apple
    • 1 Pear
    • 2 Kiwi
    • 1 Red Bell Pepper

Jeremiah 27: 15-16 NLT
This is what the LORD says: ‘I have not sent these prophets! They are telling you lies in my name, so I will drive you from this land. You will all die—you and all these prophets, too.’”Then I spoke to the priests and the people and said, “This is what the LORD says: ‘Do not listen to your prophets who claim that soon the gold articles taken from my Temple will be returned from Babylon. It is all a lie!


So read through probably the most difficult book to read in my opinion, Jeremiah, only to get three chapters deep into Lamentations and find out it is written by Jeremiah.  Did this guy seriously need 52 Chapters to explain the eventual fufilled prophecy of Babylon taking over Israel and Judah as a punishment for worshiping other gods.... 52 Chapters... really... Almost as bad as Job.  Luckily Lamentations is only 5 chapters long.

Saturday, January 21, 2012

Day 18&19: Acceptance

After about the 5 inches of snow we got today with the third consecutive day in the teens, I'm pretty sure that my dog is gone forever. I really miss the little guy.  I'm definitely not getting another dog though.  Bolt has his freedom and now I have mine.


I'm starting to catch a cold which is putting a damper on my workouts.  I did get the chance to go ahead a clean my house prettty good with my day and a half that I had off. I gathered all of Bolt's stuff together and I came to the realization that I spent a lot of money on him.


Also I lost my cellphone.  Awesome.


Song of the Day: "Everyday Struggle" by The Notorious B.I.G.
This was a song that I listened to a lot especially in the navy when I was having a bad day.  It was one of the low points of my life.  Its one thing to be completely unsatisfied with your job, but it is another thing to be unsatisfied wig your job and broke.



Song of the Yesterday: "Let's Stay Together" by Al Green
Evidently the president can sing.

Yesterday I consumed:
  • 2 Tablespoons Coconut Oil
  • Puree of:
    • 6 Roma Tomatoes
    • 8 Tomatillos
    • 1/4 Onion
    • 1 Handfull of Cilantro
    • 1 Jalenpeno
    • 1 Padilla
    • 2 Handfuls of Arugula
  • Juice of:
    • 1 Bell Pepper
    • 1 Apple
    • 1 Orange
    • 4 Handfuls of Arugula
Today I Consumed:
  • 3 Tablespoons Coconut Oil
  • Puree of:
    • 2 Small Butternut Squash Roasted
    • 1 Small Celery Root Roasted
    • 1 Small Baked Sweet Potato
    • 1/2 Onion calrmelized
    • 1 Handful of Raw Almonds
    • 1 Handful of Raw Sunflower Seeds
    • 1 Handful of Parsley
  • Juice of:
    • 3 Apples
    • 6 Oranges
    • 2 Small Beets with greens
    • 1 Head Romaine Lettuce+
    • 1 2 inch piece of ginger
Jeremiah 39:18 KJV
For I will surely deliver thee, and thou shalt not fall by the sword, but thy life shall be for a prey unto thee: because thou hast put thy trust in me, saith the Lord.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Day 17: Requiem For a Lost Dog

For the first time in a  long time I got up for work, didn't have to worry about feeding a dog or letting him outside. I went straight from work to the gym.  It was pretty much an awesome day.  If I could give all that up to have my dog back home again I would in a heartbeat.  I a certain sense I kind of admire Bolt.  He is willing to put his freedom ahead ahead of everything including warmth, security and food.  In the meantime, most of the nation sits idly by as laws that bring us closer and closer to a police state are passed.  Like the recent  bill that gives the president the power to detain someone indefinitely.  Now they're trying to take away the internet.  Might as well be China.


Today I Consumed:

  • 1 Mango Pureed
  •  Strawberries Pureed
  • 8 Blackberries Pureed
  • 1.5 cups Coconut Milk
  • Juice of:
    • 1 Beet
    • 1/2 Bulb of Fennel
    • 1 Large Sweet Potato
    • 1 Orange
    • 3 Carrots
    • 2 Handfuls of Grapes
    • 3 Handfuls of Kale
    • 2 Cucumbers
    • 1 Bell Pepper
Song of the Day: "Dream Brother" by Jeff Buckley

Every now and then I come across a song where I feel like the guitar is just played perfectly and this is one.

Jeremiah 2:19-21
Your wickedness will punish you;
your backsliding will rebuke you.
Consider then and realize
how evil and bitter it is for you
when you forsake the Lord your God
and have no awe of me,"
declares the Lord, the Lord Almighty.
"Long ago you broke off your yoke
and tore off your bonds;
you said, 'I will not serve you!'
Indeed, on every high hill
and under every spreading tree
you lay down as a prostitute.
I had planted you like a choice vine
of sound and reliable stock.
How then did you turn against me
into a corrupt, wild vine?

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Day 16: Alone

I've only lived with my family for six months after I turned 18.  Every now and then I get those moments where I feel a little alone.  I know my family loves me but it's kind of hard to feel that way when you're thousands of miles away from them.  Even my closest friends live far away from me.  I act as if it doesn't take affect me but it takes a bit of a toll.


My dog ran away today, without his collar and it didn't really hit me until just now that he's gone.  I miss the little guy being curled up at the foot of my bed.  If he doesn't come back I may move closer to work.  I don't see dog ownership in my immediate future if he isn't found though.


Song of the Day: "Off The Wall" By Michael Jackson
Today I Consumed:
  • 1 Roasted Acorn Squash Pureed
  • 1 Handful of Parsley Pureed
  • Juice of:
    • 1 Lemon
    • 1 pound of dates and apricots
    • 1 Apple
    • 1 Orange
    • 1/2 Bulb of Fennel
Song of the Day: "Off The Wall" by Michael Jackson 
It's one of my favorite MJ songs and the melodies are great.  The tempo of this song is perfect and it always takes me back to my childhood.


Isaiah 33:1 AMP WOE TO you, O destroyer, you who were not yourself destroyed, who deal treacherously though they [your victims] did not deal treacherously with you! When you have ceased to destroy, you will be destroyed; and when you have stopped dealing treacherously, they will deal treacherously with you.

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Day 15: Discipline

Man I really thought I posted this and then I noticed that I just saved it as a draft.
So the hardest day of this fast was supposed to be like day 5 or something... Nope, for woke strange reason that day has come today.  It wasn't when I was watching the end of the miners game at Hooters and watching everyone scarf down wings while I drank glass after glass of unsweetened tea (Which actually isn't that bad).  It didn't come when I had to sit down and do probably the most boring job every sitting next to a bag of my favorite chips in the world (Salt and Pepper for future reference). Those parts were actually a lot easier than I thought they would be.  The hard part is coming to the realization that I actually have self discipline, and a lot of it.  While I have all of these parts neatly firing together, that aspect of self discipline does not eextend itself to every aspect of my lifestyle.


Today I consumed:

  • 1/2 Roasted Eggplant Pureed
  • 1 Handful Parsley Pureed
  • 1 Tomato Pureed
  • Juice of:
    • 1 Cantelope
    • 1 Orange
    • 1 Apple
Song of the Day:  "Modern Inventions" by The Submarines

Isiah 25:1 NIV
Lord, you are my God;
I will exalt you and praise your name,
for in perfect faithfulness
you have done wonderful things,
things planned long ago.

Sunday, January 15, 2012

Day 14: Catch Up Day

Today I had to catch up on everything.  I also had to do three days worth of workouts. 70 mins of cardio and 75 mins of weight lifting.  I can't tell if my soreness is from weight lifting or falling so many times snowboarding.  I am exhausted now.  So this is going to be so short.  So short it ends now.


Song of the Day: "Butterflies and Hurricanes" by Muse


Today I Consumed


  • One FRS Healthy Protien
  • One Scoop of Green Vibrance
  • 2 Tablespoons Veganese
  • 1 Naked Berry Veggie
  • Half and Eggplant Pureed
  • Handful of Parsley Pureed
  • 1 Tomato Pureed
  • 6 Blackberries Pureed
  • 3 Strawberries Pureed
  • 1 Cup Coconut Milk
  • Juice of 1 Lemon


Isaiah 1:11, 13 NIV
"The multitude of your sacrifices—
what are they to me?" says the Lord.
"I have more than enough of burnt offerings,
of rams and the fat of fattened animals;
I have no pleasure
in the blood of bulls and lambs and goats. Stop bringing meaningless offerings!
Your incense is detestable to me.
New Moons, Sabbaths and convocations—
I cannot bear your worthless assemblies.

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Day 12&13: They Say

"You'll be eating burgers on day 3."
 Funny that I've quadrupled that total.  I'm going John Locke.  Don't tell me what I can't do.  This one statement has been a big driving force for me. Almost every time I think about just quitting this I think about those people that told me that I would fail.  It just drives me harder to want to finish this.
"What you're doing is a star diet, it's just like what Beyonce did to get ready for Dreamgirls"
This was very demotivating.  Although Beyonce is fine and I would like to hit that (who wouldn't),  I would never want to be put in the same category as Beyonce for anything.  Not to say in my spare time without TV and internet, I had time to read a article on the child birth drama of Beyonce, but news is slow in the Tribune... Anyhow I do think you can be a Diva and still be considerate.  Closing down the entire floor of a hospital to give birth to a perfectly healthy kid is ridiculous.  She really couldn't spend that money to have their kid at home like a normal high profile celebrity.
"I'm gonna get drunk and shoot ten year olds in the face"
Kinda disturbing until you realize he's talking about Call of Duty.
"You're from Florida and have no clue how to drive in this weather."
So true.  Two days with snow, two days in the ditch.  It's just my economic plan to stimulate job development by having more tow truck drivers at work.
"Tim Tebow can't loose with God on his side."
Kinda true, but did anybody really believe that the all knowing, all powerful creator of the universe would be a Broncos fan...
"Fry's should sell fries."
I'm so poetic and hilarious.
"The 49ers are a good team but the Saint's Red Zone offense puts them over the edge to win this one"
Drew Bress 0 TDs in Red Zone.
Alex Smith 1 Rushing TD 1 Passing TD in Red Zone....
"Who Dat?"
The San Francisco 49ers!!!!
On Day 12 and 13 I consumed:

  • One Naked Blue Machine
  • 1 Odwalla Mango Tango
  • 1 Odwalla Superfood
  • 1 FRS Healthy Protein Blueberry Acai
  • Juice of:
    • 1 Red Cabbage
    • 1 Habenero Chile
    • 1 Bag of Spinach
    • 2 Handfulls Kale
    • 3 Apples
    • 4 Oranges
    • 12 Oz Mini Sweet Peppers
    • 8 oz Blueberries
    • 4 Kiwis
    • 1 Grapefruit
    • 2 Tomatoes
    • 1 Lime
    • 1 Beet
    • 2 Inches Ginger
    • 1 Sweet Potato
    • 1 Bunch Spinach
    • 1 Serano Chile
    • 1 Red Pepper
Side note:  As previously stated, I do think this is unhealthy.  I think a person should take a balanced approach to weight loss.  If I get to that 180lb mark or start loosing a lot of muscle, I will stop as previously stated.  So if you're concerned don't worry.  I have no intentions of becoming vegan or anything like that.  Though I do welcome all your criticisms and concerns (see today's Bible verse).

Song of the Day:  "They Say" by Common
Song of the Yesterday: "Oysters" by Meshell Ndegeocello <== Love this song awesome lyrics.

Proverbs 12:1 NIV

Whoever loves discipline loves knowledge,
but whoever hates correction is stupid.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Day 11: Normalicy

It's hard to feel normal when you can't eat anything.  Just think of how many events and things we do with people that involves food.  Most of the time that food is also processed and very unhealthy.  Tonight I wanted to feel normal.  Just like an average person.  So I decided after my workout to go to my normal wine tasting (I did taste the wine but now swallowing-that's what she said).  It actually helps out that I'm limiting myself on TV.  I am starting to recognize how my addiction to TV was feeding my addiction to food.  There are so many fast food commercials that I fast forwarded past but now since I only get an hour of TV a day, I have to pay attention to when the commercial break starts so I can fit as much as my essential shows as possible.


Song of the Day: "Sitting, Wishing, Waiting" by Jack Johnson


Today I consumed:
  • Juice of:
    • Half A Pinapple
    • 3 Cactus Leaves
    • 3 Guava Fruits
    • 1 Orange
    • 3 Tangerines
    • 1 Parsnip
    • 6 oz Rasberries
    • 1 Meyer Lemon
    • 1 Orange
    • 1 Apple
    • 1/2 pound grapes
    • 2 Tomatoes
    • 1 Head of Broccoli
    • 1 Onion
    • 3 Handfuls of Kale
    • 3 Stalks of Celery




Psalm 136:17-18 AMP
To Him Who smote great kings, for His mercy  and  loving-kindness endure forever;  And slew famous kings, for His mercy  and  loving-kindness endure forever--

I just thought these verses were interesting because the beginning of these verses seems to oppose the ending.

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Day 10: Let's Get Physical

I am starting to feel a little bit high now as I walk around.  This means starvation is starting to kick in.  I didn't go to the gym today, got kind of lazy (also a result of my disdain for day shift) but not because I don't feel up for it.  Not to mention that I am very hungry right now because I left my juice at work and I really don't feel like making anymore tonight.  One thing that I miss now is my normal routine.  Come home get a beer and watch Sportscenter.
Man I really am drawing a blank on what I really want to write right now so I'm just gonna type whatever pops into my head.  This is pretty dramatic.  I don't even know why it's so important to me that I finish now but I feel as though I must.  Today as I put my produce away for the first time the Lou Malnati's fridge magnet tempted me a little.  Oh the joys of authentic Chicago deep dish pizza.  And the butter crust.  No other pizza compares.  There's no turning back now though I'm 25% complete.  .


I'm optimistic and am looking forward to the end of this.  I'm trying to pick a venue for ending this.  Some bar will have a very happy customer at 12:01am on Feb. 11th.  


Weight: 221lbs. (Down 17lbs)
Body Fat: 23.2% (Down 6%)
Waist: 40" (Down 1")
Biceps: 15" (No Change)
Chest: 42" (Up .5"... I think I may have measured wrong)


Song of the Day: "Drunken Lullabies" by Flogging Molly (What a brother can't listen to Irish Folk Rock?)


Today I consumed:
  • Juice of:
    • Half A Pinapple
    • 3 Cactus Leaves
    • 3 Guava Fruits
    • 1 Orange
    • 3 Tangerines
    • 1 Parsnip

Psalm 130:1-2 NIV
Out of the depths I cry to you, Lord; Lord, hear my voice.
Let your ears be attentive
to my cry for mercy.

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Day 9: Fear

Yesterday was a little shorter than normal and today's post is going to be long so please bear with me.


Christian.  That's what I called myself.  That's what I grew up as was raised by a Christian mother.  My grandmother and even great grandmother were very devout Christians.  I could even go as far as to say that Christianity in my family goes much deeper than that.  I don't know for sure simply because I don't know much about my family before My great grandmother's generation.  My mother wasn't just your average church on Sundays Christian either.  As a matter of fact my church schedule was something like this growing up.  I went Tuesday nights for bible study.  Wednesday (or Thursday can't remember that clearly) nights for choir rehearsal.  Sunday Mornings for your classic Sunday School/Morning Worship combo.


As I grew up I decided to join the church.  I forget what age this happened but I do remember it was in my pre-teenage years.  My decision to join the church and become a full fledged choir singing member, was not out of the love of Christ in the beginning.  Of course I went through the motions of saying that I accepted Jesus Christ as my personal savior and so on, but that was because I was scared.  Really I was scared shitless.  The talk of fire and brimstone and gnashing of teeth  had me like  hey if this Jesus guy wants to save me then so be it. Later when I was around 16 there was a sermon in which the preacher said "You should love God because He loves you. Not because of what He has done for you or fear of what might happen to you if you don't love Him" That statement roller coaster of emotions as I grew and developed into a man, being a really devout Christian at times and pretty much a hethan at others.


Fast forward to today.  As I look back on that time I question whether or not I was truly mature enough to make those decisions at that young of an age.  I question whether the the constant bombardment with scriptures neatly packaged into sermons that presented Christianity to me in such a good and forgiving light really just sort of got me to say "Okay I agree with this." blindly without question or thought or emotion.  I thought that in reading the Bible through from cover to cover, I would develop a deep and personal relationship with God.  That my beliefs would be strengthened and enhanced.  Now I don't know.


I read 103 Psalms today.  103 Chapters from various writers with a tone that swings back and forth  from that which sounds like that of a badly abused child, to a loved respected and powerful man.  The compelling part that really got under my skin was the 94th Psalm.  Which really boils down to a long rant from the Psalmist to God asking for the destruction of his enemies.  The entire premise seemed downright evil and pretty sick.  That chapter being included in a book that is the doctrine for your religious beliefs...  It makes me sick to my stomach just thinking about it.  What's even more troubling is the more I think about it, and this could be clouded, but it seemed as though there were many more "destroy my enemies" and "why have you forsaken me" than "Bless the Lords"


The craziest thing about this situation, is I don't want to let this go.  I want this to be real for me.  I want to blindly believe in God, because my faith in God has gotten me through some really tough times.  I don't know how to even begin to be Atheist or Agnostic.  The idea of there being no Heaven and Hell, no God to punish those who do evil and prosper in life to me is a much more morbid, disturbing reality than recognizing the flaws in my religious doctrine.


Song of the Day: "Shot For Me"  by Drake


Today I Consumed:

  • One Banana Creme Muscle Milk
  • Juice of:
    • 1 Jicama
    • 1 Beet
    • 1 Apple
    • 3 Inch Piece of Ginger

I wrote the following just after I got to Psalms 23:


I only felt it fitting that today's Bible quote is from the iconoclastic 23rd Psalm, since I happened to make it that far today in my reading.  I find it interesting that in the psalm immediately preceding it, an attitude of utter defeat is displayed and a feeling of abandonment is shown.  I decided to display The Message version just to be fifteenth because I have the KJV of this scripture memorized.


Psalm 23:1-6 MSG
God, my shepherd! I don't need a thing. You have bedded me down in lush meadows, you find me quiet pools to drink from. True to your word, you let me catch my breath and send me in the right direction. Even when the way goes through Death Valley, I'm not afraid when you walk at my side. Your trusty shepherd's crook makes me feel secure. You serve me a six-course dinner right in front of my enemies. You revive my drooping head; my cup brims with blessing. Your beauty and love chase after me every day of my life. I'm back home in the house of God for the rest of my life.

Day 8: Tired

I guess I should have been sleepy considering I only got three hours of sleep the day before.  All I really did was sleep today.  Now after a solid ten hours of sleep I feel up and ready  for the day.



Today I consumed:


  • 5 Strawberries Pureed
  • 8 Blackberries Pureed
  • One Handful of Spinach Pureed
  • 3 Cups Almond Milk
  • Juice of:
    • 1 Papaya
    • 1 Apple
    • 1 Pasilla Pepper
    • 1 Pomegranate
    • 1 Lemon
    • 1 2" Piece of Ginger
    • 1 Bunch Rainbow Carrots
Song of the Day: "Sleep Now With The Fire" by Rage Against The Machine
Job 35:5-7 NASB
"Look at the heavens and see; And behold the clouds-they are higher than you. "If you have sinned, what do you accomplish against Him? And if your transgressions are many, what do you do to Him? "If you are righteous, what do you give to Him, Or what does He receive from your hand?

Sunday, January 8, 2012

Day 6&7: Temptation

Today in the morning I thought I was over the hump.  Once the stomach problems of the morning subsided,  I thought that I was home free. I was certain that I wouldn't be experiencing that intense hunger or lethargy anymore.  I was completely wrong however.


This blog is being written from a remote location.  I'm in Indiana right now and at a birthday party for a one year old.  The hardest part about today was resisting the pizza, ice cream and cake.  Not to mention it's kinda hard for a social drinker like myself not to drink socially.


Today was a great lesson in restraint.  Restraint that I haven't practiced in a long time. I can't believe I've gone a week without solid food already.  A week without alcohol.  I must admit my skin is clearing up a lot.  I think I have found the key to defeating eczema.


Song of the Day:  "Smile Like You Mean It" by The Killers


Saturday I Consumed:

  • 1 Cup Almond Milk
  • 3 Strawberries Pureed
  • 6 Blackberries Pureed
  • 1 Cup Almond Milk
  • 1 Handful Spinach Pureed
  • Juice of:
    • 1 Large Beet with Greens
    • One Orange
    • 2 Apples
    • 1 2 inch piece of Ginger
    • 8 Carrots
Today I consumed:
  • One FRS Healthy Protein Blueberry Acai
  • 1 Cup Almond Milk
  • Juice of:
    • 1 Apple
    • 1 Parsnip
    • 1 Orange
    • 2 Handfuls of Kale
    • 1 Pear


Ezra 9:12-15 MSG 

Whatever you do, don't give your daughters in marriage to their sons nor marry your sons to their daughters. Don't cultivate their good opinion; don't make over them and get them to like you so you can make a lot of money and build up a tidy estate to hand down to your children.' And now this, on top of all we've already suffered because of our evil ways and accumulated guilt, even though you, dear God, punished us far less than we deserved and even went ahead and gave us this present escape. Yet here we are, at it again, breaking your commandments by intermarrying with the people who practice all these obscenities! Are you angry to the point of wiping us out completely, without even a few stragglers, with no way out at all? You are the righteous God of Israel. We are, right now, a small band of escapees. Look at us, openly standing here, guilty before you. No one can last long like this."

Saturday, January 7, 2012

Day 5ish: D-Day

Today's post is sponsored by the letter D.


D is for Dreams.  For the first time in a long while I had a dream.  I dreamed about a crispy chicken sandwich.  As I bit into it somebody saw me and I tried to hide. It was surreal.


D is for Diarrhea. I thought I could avoid it but throughout the night on day five and into the morning of day six, I sent a bunch of troops to bombard the beaches of Normandy.    Fortunately after my second visit to the toilet in the morning, I felt better and decided to go ahead to the gym and get in a workout.


D is for Desire.  Yesterday was the last day that our crew at work would be together on shift, so there was a big party with everyone bringing in their best dishes.  So hungry I resisted and stuck with my cabbage, green bean and bell pepper juice.


D is for Democrat.  Yes I am still am hard left.  It is hard for me to believe that the republican choices for president are between the following:
  • Mitt Romney:  Does anybody know what this guy's position is on anything?
  • Rick Santorum: Step one Google "Santorum".  Step two, find that this guy took his stillborn child home for his children to see.  Also see that he really doesn't care about family values at all.  See how he handled the resignation of Senator John Ensign from his sex scandal in Nevada.
  • Newt Gingrich: It is dumbfounding to me how you can be fired as Speaker of the House on ethics charges and still be a legitimate candidate for president.
  • Ron Paul: I would actually kind of like Ron Paul if it wasn't for the fact that he wants less regulation over a financial market that caused our economic collapse and his irresponsible printing of racist remarks in his newsletters.
With those choices is the guy who got Bin Laden and now has the unemployment rate at its lowest in three years really that bad?



Yesterday I consumed:
1 Cup Almond Milk
3 Tablespoons Olive Oil
Juice of :
2 Tomatoes
1 Tomatillo
2 Jalapenos
3 Carrots
2 Handfuls of Kale with Pulp
4 Stalks of Celery
3 Cloves of Garlic
1 Apple
1 Pear
1 Orange
2 Handfuls of Spinach
1 1 inch piece of ginger

Song of the Day: "I Don't Know Why" as preformed by the Jackson 5

Ezra 3:11 AMP
They sang responsively, praising and giving thanks to the Lord, saying, For He is good, for His mercy and loving-kindness endure forever toward Israel. And all the people shouted with a great shout when they praised the Lord, because the foundation of the house of the Lord was laid!

Thursday, January 5, 2012

Day 4: Failure

Today is the first day that I can say that this is actually difficult.  I mean I knew that eventually it would be but it's just today I woke up just kind of jaded, completely depressed and exhausted.  I still went through my normal routine.  Went to the gym and such.  This has still been a bit of a pretty bad day.


At the end of the day I will be 10% done with this fast.  10% seems like nothing.  The end seems so far and distant and insignificant.  Yet and still I feel that for some reason that I can't even comprehend nor explain why I want to continue on with this fast.  I think most of it has to do with the fact that I don't want to fail at something else.  I want to see this through totally and completely until the end.  I feel like I've done a lot in the just over a quarter century that I've been living on this earth but also by the same token there have many times I haven't completely lived up to my full potential.


I can't complain because in actuality I am better off than most but by the same token, I feel as though I could have accomplished so much more.  There have been so many points in my life where I've gotten discouraged and just don't want to continue on with what I want to do.  It as if  I have lived my life by taking the convenient alternative rather than putting forth the full effort.


Song of The Day: "I Do Not Want This" By Nine Inch Nails


Yesterday I consumed:
1/2 Bottle Blueberry Acai Healthy Protein
1 Blueberry Pineapple Smoothie at the gym
Juice of :
1 Tomato
1 Tomatillo
1 Jalapeno
3 Carrots
1 Cantelope
1 Grapefruit
2 Handfuls of Kale with pulp
4 Stalks of Celery


2 Chronicles 32:17-21


17  The Assyrian king also wrote letters insulting the Lord, the God of Israel, and speaking against Him, saying, As the gods of the nations of other lands have not delivered their people out of my hand, so shall not the God of Hezekiah deliver His people out of my hand.18  And they shouted it loudly in the Jewish language to the people of Jerusalem who were on the wall, to frighten and terrify them, that they might take the city.19  And they spoke of the God of Jerusalem as they spoke of the gods of the peoples of the earth, which are the work of the hands of men.20  For this cause Hezekiah the king and the prophet Isaiah son of Amoz prayed and cried to heaven.21  And the Lord sent an angel, who cut off all the mighty warriors and commanders and officers in the camp of the king of Assyria. So the Assyrian king returned with shamed face to his own land. And when he came into the house of his god, they who were his own offspring slew him there with the sword.